So... yeah. It's been an extremely long time since I last posted. But that's not to say things haven't been happening in my life! First of all, school is almost over. As happy as I am to be able to say that, I really can't believe it. In fact, I've had trouble coming to terms with a lot of occurrences in my life lately. I still haven't grasped the fact that this year I made All-Region band, joined the track team, played tennis, lost weight, started writing more, and biggest of all... actually placed at state U.I.L. competition. These are all goals that I failed to reach last year. I also feel like I'm at peace with myself more now. I don't question if I'm good enough quite as much as I used to. Plus, I'm about to get a small job in web design like I've been wanting! So I conclude that it has been a very good year.

Not ready to be single again :(

I really should be working on all these assignments for computer programming... but I just can't focus. Everything that happened yesterday was just so sudden. I almost feel like I haven't had time to be upset because I wasn't prepared for it. I feel... alone, and cheated, like when you lose your grip on something valuable and it suddenly slips from your fingers. And there's nothing you can do about it. You're just left with a feeling of despare. This is going to sound stupid, but right now I just need someone to listen, a good cry, and a hug, lol.

Baylor and Switchfoot... nice.

Today at lunch I got something kinda interesting in the mail, but didn't even notice it at first. I get stuff from colleges all the time now, so when my Dad threw this postcard from Baylor at me I didn't think much of it. Actually, I didn't really even look at it. But as I was leaving to go back to school, my mom mentioned something about it talking about a Switchfoot concert, and then I was suddenly interested! Apparently they're having a concert thingy, and it's free!! Ok, maybe I'm not as big of a Switchfoot fan as I was a year or so ago, and they may not be Nickelback or Three Days Grace, but I still think getting to see them live would be awesome! Just thought I'd share that, lol.

Ok, and I just took this quiz on Seventeen.com that told me my fall color is... plum. Hmm, I don't think so, lol.

Random rants again

So, today has been good so far. I actually made it all the way through my computer class without getting on the internet once! I have to stop being a slacker now, because I got my report card today... not pretty. At all. And what's even worse is that I don't feel very worried about it... and I should. What's wrong with me? Anyway, I'd rather not think about it at the moment...
Track has officially started, and that same nervous feeling from 8th grade always come back the period before athletics. Dread. But by the end of practice I feel so glad that I'm in track this year. I can't believe I considered not doing something that I really like. I want to do well this year.
Prom is really still pretty far away, but everyone's already getting excited about it- including me! I started tanning again yesterday, and I'm ready to start looking at dresses... but I'd really like to get in better shape first, lol. Plus, I now have a date! :D Exciting stuff, haha.

Hmm... what to say about today? TAKS was pretty easy, although the essay topic completely sucked. I'm sitting in Computer Programming halfway listening to the lesson. I don't really feel like working today, but I know I'll be mad at myself later for not listening well enough. I just have other stuff on my mind... which I guess I'll have to talk about later because we're starting a new program! Woops...

One more day

So, staying up after midnight last night was not a smart thing to do. I must start going to bed earlier, geez. But thankfully this year I have discovered a little something called caffeine... and it is great! haha.

Well, I don't have much to say about today really. The pool table that was supposed to arrive didn't, and won't until Friday. But that's ok. Also, the U.I.L. meet is actually here in town this weekend, and I'm probably going to get to compete in computer science! Yeah, so maybe I'm terrible at it. That's what practice is for... and I really want to do well in it, along with my precious journalism events, of course. And then I'll have lots of homework to do today after track, which started yesterday and I am so happy about!

Other than that, just the usual stress of life... bleh. It's just great, isn't it??

Time for a LOVEly week... hehe

Wednesday is Valentine's Day, and- call me stupid if you want- I actually really love this holiday. I have a lot of friends who think it's kinda pointless, but what's so wrong with a little box of chocolates or flowers or stuffed teddy bear (or puppy dog if it were my decision, hehe) to show you care? My little sister (bless her heart) has finally gotten to that age where she has that hidden hope, like all girls, that a mysterious "secret admirer" note, or something of the sort, will make it's way to her on that day, lol. It's so interesting to watch her get older and go through the same emotions that I feel like I've just barely gotten rid of in the past year or so. I love that girl to death!
Another thing on my mind: Why do girls have to be so mean? I'm including myself in this too, but I will have say that I try to at least respect everybody. I'm not going to tell the whole story, but I'm just amazed at how cold some people can be to others just because they decided one day that they weren't going to like that person, or they don't agree with everything that person said, or that person had a bad day and was rude. I mean, cut people some slack every once in a while! We all fall short at times... geez.
Okay, that's my rant for now... until next time.