I'm saying this now...

So I have decided on my main goal for this year (and from now on, really...):

Stop setting so many goals.

At least all at the same time. There are so many things I want to get done and achieve right now, but I just have to stop trying to do everything at once, because... I never end up getting anything accomplished, and that makes me look lazy. I want all of these ideas to be seen by other people than just myself, which means I have to be organized enough to actually get them out of my head!

Naming emotions

Weirdly enough... I know exactly what they are talking about here.

So... yeah. It's been an extremely long time since I last posted. But that's not to say things haven't been happening in my life! First of all, school is almost over. As happy as I am to be able to say that, I really can't believe it. In fact, I've had trouble coming to terms with a lot of occurrences in my life lately. I still haven't grasped the fact that this year I made All-Region band, joined the track team, played tennis, lost weight, started writing more, and biggest of all... actually placed at state U.I.L. competition. These are all goals that I failed to reach last year. I also feel like I'm at peace with myself more now. I don't question if I'm good enough quite as much as I used to. Plus, I'm about to get a small job in web design like I've been wanting! So I conclude that it has been a very good year.

Not ready to be single again :(

I really should be working on all these assignments for computer programming... but I just can't focus. Everything that happened yesterday was just so sudden. I almost feel like I haven't had time to be upset because I wasn't prepared for it. I feel... alone, and cheated, like when you lose your grip on something valuable and it suddenly slips from your fingers. And there's nothing you can do about it. You're just left with a feeling of despare. This is going to sound stupid, but right now I just need someone to listen, a good cry, and a hug, lol.

Baylor and Switchfoot... nice.

Today at lunch I got something kinda interesting in the mail, but didn't even notice it at first. I get stuff from colleges all the time now, so when my Dad threw this postcard from Baylor at me I didn't think much of it. Actually, I didn't really even look at it. But as I was leaving to go back to school, my mom mentioned something about it talking about a Switchfoot concert, and then I was suddenly interested! Apparently they're having a concert thingy, and it's free!! Ok, maybe I'm not as big of a Switchfoot fan as I was a year or so ago, and they may not be Nickelback or Three Days Grace, but I still think getting to see them live would be awesome! Just thought I'd share that, lol.

Ok, and I just took this quiz on Seventeen.com that told me my fall color is... plum. Hmm, I don't think so, lol.

Random rants again

So, today has been good so far. I actually made it all the way through my computer class without getting on the internet once! I have to stop being a slacker now, because I got my report card today... not pretty. At all. And what's even worse is that I don't feel very worried about it... and I should. What's wrong with me? Anyway, I'd rather not think about it at the moment...
Track has officially started, and that same nervous feeling from 8th grade always come back the period before athletics. Dread. But by the end of practice I feel so glad that I'm in track this year. I can't believe I considered not doing something that I really like. I want to do well this year.
Prom is really still pretty far away, but everyone's already getting excited about it- including me! I started tanning again yesterday, and I'm ready to start looking at dresses... but I'd really like to get in better shape first, lol. Plus, I now have a date! :D Exciting stuff, haha.

Hmm... what to say about today? TAKS was pretty easy, although the essay topic completely sucked. I'm sitting in Computer Programming halfway listening to the lesson. I don't really feel like working today, but I know I'll be mad at myself later for not listening well enough. I just have other stuff on my mind... which I guess I'll have to talk about later because we're starting a new program! Woops...