Here we go again :)

A month later, and I'm finally writing again. Things have been so crazy lately.
I'm in the process of going to State level in U.I.L. again. It's my last chance, and I don't want to lose it.
And then One-Act has gone a lot farther than I thought it would, and I'm glad. That's finally over now so maybe things will settle down a bit. I really want to get a job and feel productive.
I have that familiar feeling back again; the urge to write something profound that just hasn't made its way into my senses just yet. But I am feeling very unsettled right now... and can't explain exactly why.

I found this graphic I created back in my sophomore year. It was a visual for this writing I had done for my AP English class. I'm still so proud of that; and I feel like I've let some of my creativity slide away from me in the past couple years. It makes me sad. But the great thing about this is that I can bring it back. It's just so much easier when you actually have a class scheduled in which you are able to work on some of this creativity. Sometimes, these days (I really hate that phrase), I feel like I don't even allow myself time to be inspired, and when I do I don't act on those inspirations. I become lazy and choose not to write down my ideas or thoughts, thinking I'll get to it at a later time. Right. I'm such a procrastinator. But I'm working on that too ;)

But besides these complaints, I am very happy with life right now. I love the awesome people in my life, I love my music, I love school (well... sort of, because I know I'll be out of it in less than 2 months! hehe), and I love myself. What can I say? Life is beautiful.

P.S. This has been on my mind too:

"Are you saying love
Or are you saying nothing
Still life is a crime
That I can't ignore
Your perfect ways will follow
The temperature that's rising
All this time you never let me think


It was the hardest part to know
It was the fastest we could run
It was the farthest we could go
We are a lie my angel

Cause for hate and
A cause for ending
It sounds so easy
But everytime we were supposed to let go
We'd make love
Now pull me closer let the heat take over

Call me your way
Call me away
Don't end it open
I tried to love you like before
If this was our night
It was the best one of our lives

Are you saying now
Or are you saying never
The still frame in my mind cannot be ignored
....

And we were drawing lines not to cross
So we would never feel a thing
And now it's breaking you apart
Just like it broke your heart..."
-Evans Blue, "Q"